Paula Johnson

Thank you so much Melissa, I so appreciate your love and support over the past weeks and have loved seeing you and the other deep dive into the topics! I would love to connect with you again outside of here...let's make it happen 💖

Oh @odette.chesterman I so HEAR YOU sista! I too have now been on my own 10 years and while the first 5 I was not interested in another relationship for the last half I certainly have been. I have marathons on Bumble, dips into Tinder, and one or 2 other online dating sites out there...BUT where are these gorgeous heart centered men who are doing the 'work', as we have and continue to do...? I surrender, leaving it up to the universe and then I get impatient and swear and curse at the universe that it's taking too long - life is passing me by - come on I want to share it with someone special!!!! But in the gaps where I surrender and allow, I know I am transforming even more, and the man who is deserving to be with ME is doing the same...until one day we bump into each other and say 'you took your sweet time, where the hell have you been?" 😂🤣 Keep allowing honey, keep believing. YOU are absolutely WORTHY. BELIEVE in YOU and all the magnificence you are...some bloke will be so lucky to have you as his woman one day - and he better hurry up! 😍

@Melissa oh wow thank you so much for your heart-felt encouragement Melissa, I so very much appreciate that, and you're dead right - it's their issue not mine if they can't see the wisdom of experience and love in my sharing - thank you 🌹

@natashagerrard thank you so much 💕, self belief is a biggie for me and although I may look confident and in control from the outside, my inner being can sometimes be found quivering in doubt and fear...but YES - feel the fear and do it anyway for sure!!! 😍...watch this space...

Lou Lou was trying to hide but I caught her out 😹 FEAR: My current fear is getting my book (memoir) out into the world. I don't want people to think it's crap. I've put 10 long years into it and I feel it's still far from ready for the general public, although I am about to send it out to my family so that's scary enough in itself! I fear the push back from past partners who are in the book, one in particular who features heavily in the last third...I know he'll pick out the 2 not so good bits I wrote about his behaviour and completely ignore the many amazing points I wrote about him. Plus, I'm revealing a huge skeleton in the family closet...my siblings know about it, but their children don't...they will find out about it when they read it. eeeek! How can I overcome this fear? Just do it - like I always do! 🏵️

@Melissa Oh wow, what a magnificent post! Thank you for sharing your truth, your vulnerability and your WISDOM around fear. I too think fear is a positive thing that alerts us to uncomfortable moments to push through in order to grow...but I also know how debilitating it can be. Thing is, once you're on the other side of it you wonder what the fuss was all about! 😍

Awww beautiful Nera, she's so blessed to have found such a loving, safe haven with you guys. Yes, can totally resonate with what you've said about the past 18 months Natasha. I don't think anyone could have escaped the fear and stress...but as you say, from this darkened time comes light...I too have found my way out and am now standing in a place of great strength and love...one of my favourite quotes is 'the only way out is through'...and thank God many of us have come through to the other side - let the LIGHT shine!